I am going to try and keep this post very abstract as to not offend the subject of what I’m about to talk about.
I was just having a thought about my One Little Word for the year CLEAN. I’m not sure if I’ve already mentioned this elsewhere, I probably have but I think its time I do a big clean out. Clean out of all the crap in my life that I don’t want to be there.
Do you ever wake up and dread doing something that you really shouldn’t dread doing. Something that you thought you would love doing every single time? I have found myself in such a situation. Perhaps I thought I was someone else. Or just wanted to be someone else. Whatever the reason is I’ve discovered its not me. It’s never been me. Of course I am paying the price currently but soon enough I intend to clean out this thing, this headache, from my life and replace it with something that truly excites me!
And honestly, just knowing that awaits me down the road excites me tremendously. Gives me great relief. (Raising my glass) So here’s to being who we truly are. To recognizing our flaws and celebrating them rather than being ashamed because life is too short for that.
I am really excited to start on Ali Edwards One Little Word® project this year. Ali Edwards is a major creative force in the scrapbooking and Project Life world. I’ve known of her for awhile now and followed her blog. I’ve seen this project and known other bloggers that do it each year but it always just felt like something extra on my plate, something that I didn’t want to add to the mix. This year though, it felt right.
For whatever the reason, it feels like my life is finally coming together. I went back and forth on what word I was going to choose and the word CLEAN was really speaking to me. Initially I thought about simple or simplify or cleanse but the word CLEAN is just what I needed I believe. CLEAN out my old life, CLEAN out the mistakes I’ve made and am still holding onto (thus punishing myself continuously). CLEAN out the old Erin to make way for the new. I could make New Year’s resolutions that I won’t keep, more promises to break. Or I could start a journey of figuring out who I am and where I want to be.
With the kids starting kindergarten in just under two years, things are really moving forward for us. The kids are getting more mature and taking care of more and more on their own. I can actually ask them to complete tasks on themselves (brush teeth, put on socks & shoes, hang up coat, etc). They no longer nap so they go to bed early which gives us a nice long evening to relax. But also it has made us realize they will be at Jackson Elementary soon enough and we would like to stay in this house longer. If that is going to happen things will need to change a bit. The house needs to be CLEAN. We need to make it work for our family of 4 which includes 2 rapidly growing children.
Of course that is not the only explanation for the word CLEAN. I’ve been working at staying on my medication which helps me have a CLEAN mind. I haven’t been running although I really hope to return to that. It has many meanings to me. CLEAN in the home, CLEAN of the mind, CLEAN of the soul, CLEAN of the body, CLEAN of the heart, a CLEAN slate in my relationships CLEAN bed to get into at night, CLEAN kitchen to cook CLEAN food in, CLEAN spaces for my children to play in, CLEAN office for my husband to work in
CLEAN attitude in disciplining my children, CLEANing out the bookshelves by removing those I’ve read and reading those I haven’t, CLEAN out the office and my crafts stash by using only supplies I have on hand for OLW and other scrapbooking projects.
I know there are many more ways to describe how I plan to see the word CLEAN be used in my life but I think this is a pretty great place to start. I can’t wait to see where this word takes me on my journey this year. This is the year to be CLEAN.
Please stay tuned for updates on this project on my YouTube channel which you can access HERE.